5/1/26 Friday 5 pm
I set myself up for this because I said I would update friends, family, and old clients on Susan’s condition after her Monday appointment. I have not addressed that yet, as I said I would.
We never made it to the appointment. Her “good” windows are shrinking. I confirmed the appointment on Friday. Monday morning, she went south at 7 am.
6 months ago, it never started until 2 pm. I am making progress in reducing some heavy meds. Unnecessary. I am by no means a Doctor/Scientist, but I know what works and what makes her worse. I have spent 56% of my life (entire life) with her, nearly 24/7, so I notice changes. The time she called me over to the curtains, and wanted to take pictures of “the fence people”. Yep, got rid of that pill. No more hallucinations. There have been others. I have just gone back to treating the disease the best anyone knows, with the Carbo/Levo.
I really appreciate feedback from everyone who has gone through similar experiences under this whole “neurological disorder” umbrella. The Parkinsons, Dementia, Alzheimer’s afflictions.
To make it more complicated, it is likely CBD (Corticobasal Degeneration). This really explains the aphasia. In my opinion, I don’t know if any of these afflictions can be professionally diagnosed. This is not a point against any Doctors who targeted this specialty to help people. It is shit that we just don’t know enough about it yet. Not at all.
This is what aphasia with PBA sounds like in real life. It sounds strange to say, but I feel blessed when these episodes (storms) only last 3 hours a day. 10 hours is a struggle because, as a caretaker, I can’t shut down that quickly and still get sleep afterwards.
This was pretty mild. But I guess I get a little numb, because I know she won’t remember it, and I have to stay strong.
Sorry, did not want to “blindside ” anyone. I just want you to know I will get an update out in the morning.









